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December 11, 2007

Always Look On The Bright Side

I'm trying to convince myself that the fact that I failed my 1 hr Gestational Diabetes screen today (with flying colors, I might add) means I get three hours of knitting time tomorrow morning when I go for my 3 hr GTT test. Whoohoo!

Somehow, though, it's not really working. The other night I couldn't get the baby to move for about an hour and a half and completely freaked myself out - I drank some grape juice and stayed on my left side and finally, at around 2 AM, the kid started moving. Then, the next morning, I threw up all over the place - I always keep the toilet seat up! Not yesterday. Fun times.

I love feeling the baby move all the time and just when I think I'm enjoying being pregnant, another stumbling block. I know failing my 1hr test doesn't mean I have GD (my sister says she failed the 1hr with all three of her kids and never failed the 3hr) but I just want something ANYTHING to be a little bit of a no brainer already. I just want ONE thing to be a little bit easy. I know I shouldn't be ungrateful because the fact is my baby is healthy and seemingly happy floating away in there and that's the most important thing. I KNOW THIS. But still, I'd like to catch a little bit of a break. Just a little one.

It's times like these I'm glad there's still so much work for me to do. Busy is good - otherwise I'd be sitting here crying my eyes out.

Posted by Cara at December 11, 2007 11:53 AM
Topics: Baby? OH BABY!

Comments

me too - same happened after years of infertility etc. etc. etc.
the only thing that was easy for me was the breast feeding part and you don't know that until AFTER!
pitty parties are AOK in my book.
Breathe, knit, drink the sugar.
We'll all hope for good results from readerland.

Posted by: Rev. Linda at December 11, 2007 12:02 PM

Ugh I HATED the three hour test (which i eventually passed). But I wasn't a knitter then. Now I might be glad for a three hour test. Due to my own dumbness I didnt make enough of a statement that I was there for the 3 hour and actally spent 40 minutes in the waiting room.
Today I had my 8 week ultrasound and while I was excited to see the babe, hanging out for 20 minutes with a gooey probe stuck up in there is not my idea of fun!
I read that cinnamon is supposed to help regulate insulin. I have no idea if it works for pregnant people but I eat cinnamon toast two or three times a week. Doesn't hurt that I love the stuff!
Hope you dont puke up the drink and that we get nice wooly progress shots. Good luck.
oh one more thing. I read once that during birth a hormone is released that makes you forget a lot of the delivery. Its our way of being dumb enough to go through it again! This time next year this will all be a foggy memory!

Posted by: Meg McG at December 11, 2007 12:12 PM

Big cyber hug to you. Thinking positive thoughts for the 3 hour test.

Posted by: Wanda in AR at December 11, 2007 12:12 PM

Busy is always good for keeping one's mind off of things. I wish you lots of luck (and progress knitting) for your test tomorrow!

Posted by: Stephanie at December 11, 2007 12:23 PM

Been there...and passed the long one. So all is not lost -- yet. Don't plan on knitting, though. I crashed out after the first hour. I've never been so tired. I guess low blood sugar can do that.

Posted by: doulicia at December 11, 2007 12:28 PM

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you with the 3-hour test; I failed the 1-hour once and had to do the 3-hour, it's not dreadful (try the 7-hour once and you'll know what I mean). Just relax, breathe, and look at it as gained knitting time. Good luck!

Posted by: Deborah C. at December 11, 2007 12:30 PM

Cara,

I had to stop lurking to let you know you have a VERY good chance that everything will be OK tomorrow. They make the 1hr test very easy to fail. That's why there's the follow-up 3hr (and 6hr and 8hr) test. I failed my 1hr with my kiddo and passed the 3hr no problem, even with my extensive family history of Diabetes.

Many happy thoughts coming your way!

Posted by: Chrisbar at December 11, 2007 12:33 PM

why not just make the 1 hour test accurate or send you right into the 3 hour? any medical people know why?

Posted by: meg mcg at December 11, 2007 12:38 PM

Everything with my pregnancy with Ian was like that. Nothing was smooth, heck life with Ian is kind of like that;) but you've seen my gorgeous loving boy. He is ever so worth it!

You'll be fine I have no doubt whatsoever:D

Posted by: Nancy at December 11, 2007 12:42 PM

Hang in there. It is all worth it in the end. Sorry you have to go through this, but it will be ok.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

Posted by: Kathy at December 11, 2007 12:50 PM

I'm sending good thoughts and prayers your way!

Posted by: margene at December 11, 2007 12:51 PM

I had gestational diabetes with child 2 of 3 (only child 2). It was actually really easy. Portion control, portion control, portion control and eat on a regular schedule (which could be a pain during the holidays.)

The bright side was, I lost all of my pregnancy weight in 6 weeks (don't hate me, she was also a world champion nurser.) By the way, I said weight, it was still three months before my pre-pregnancy jeans were comfortable.

Posted by: PICAdrienne at December 11, 2007 01:03 PM

sending you good thoughts, Cara, Hope the 3-hr test goes well. :)

Posted by: Carrie at December 11, 2007 01:14 PM

I hope everything goes well with the next test. Take care!

Posted by: Sarah at December 11, 2007 01:28 PM

Good thoughts for the 3hr test. And even if you do have GD, as complications go, it's far from the worst possibility. So, hugs all around.

And as for the sudden "I'm resting, Mommy, I don't want to move" days..yeah, they freaked me out too, until I started thinking about how much energy she must be expending do the salsa kickstep in there all damn day. It's spazzy when they just up and stop, but if she started moving again, you're all good.

But still more hugs for you. :)

Posted by: Kristine at December 11, 2007 01:40 PM

I'm so sorry! I don't have any personal experience, so I'll just say I hope every goes well for the next test!

Posted by: Liz at December 11, 2007 01:42 PM

sending you good vibes!! and warm thoughts.

Posted by: margaux at December 11, 2007 01:42 PM

Kara, count me in -- I failed the initial GD test with each pregnancy but never failed the longer one. I would suggest bringing a book to the test (or, better yet, a magazine) because with my second pregnancy, I was ready to have a good lie down about halfway through the three hour test. I didn't feel bad, just felt tired (which I took as an alarming sign that I *did* have GD), and didn't feel much like working with my hands or concentrating. Good luck!!

Posted by: Susan at December 11, 2007 01:48 PM

I'm sorry about your test results Cara! I failed my 1-hour in November so badly they just diagnosed me so I didn't have to stomach the 3-hour test. As others have said, if you do fail it's not that bad. For you OB, it mostly means more ultrasounds and chances to check in on your little one.

I know how you feel though. We went through infertility treatments to get pregnant too. I was joking with my husband that it took needles to get started, so why shouldn't it take needles to finish up. Seriously though, if you even get to that point, the insulin shots are so much easier than the infertility ones!

I'll be thinking passing thoughts for you tomorrow!

Posted by: Stefanie Summerer at December 11, 2007 01:54 PM

I had GD during my pregnancy. It was one thing that was easy to take care of. Portion control and counting carbs. I know it sounds hard, but it was easy. If you do have it, your doctor won't expect you to be perfect about the diet either. I had cake at my baby shower and ate Thanksgiving dinner like normal. It's all about moderation.

And, the baby weight came off so easily!

I had my knitting for the 3 hour and it kept me occupied. All will be fine! No worries!

Posted by: Mindy at December 11, 2007 01:55 PM

I failed that test with all 3 of my kids and had healthy pregnancies and babies. I think my morning sickness had something to do with it.
Expect on heck of a sugar buzz followed by the crash.
Have fun knitting, Jenn

Posted by: Jennfier at December 11, 2007 02:03 PM

Good luck tomorrow - I'll be thinking of you the whole morning!

Posted by: Ellie at December 11, 2007 02:05 PM

Cara --

I failed my 1 hr test too -- by one measly point! It made me crazy. Before I took the three hour test, my doctor's office had me do a three day carb-loading diet to prime my pancreas for the experience. Also, if you do decide to knit, walk and knit. Part of what burns up sugar is exercise. For the first hour of my test I had to stay in the doctor's office (they wanted to make sure I wasn't going to get sick from all the sugar on an empty stomach), but after that, I was free to go where-ever I wanted as long as I was back in time for the blood work. I walked a lot in those three hours. In the end, my results turned out just fine. And moving around a lot made me feel a lot better that day.

I felt at the end of Z's pregnancy that I couldn't buy a break. So I know a little bit of how you feel about just wanting things to go easily. The cool thing for you now: all these tests signal that the end game is getting closer.

Oh, and Z had a definite "activity schedule" -- when I slept at night, so did she. When I got up in the morning, she did, too, but about 30-45 minutes after I did. Sometimes they just take long naps, even in utero. But I do know how crazy it made me when she didn't check in with me every now and again.

Posted by: Theresa at December 11, 2007 02:11 PM

sending good thoughts your way!

Posted by: Lark at December 11, 2007 02:30 PM

Hang in there and good luck.

Posted by: Eileen at December 11, 2007 02:42 PM

I don't recall these tests (of any duration) at all. I hope it turns out okay.

Posted by: Janis at December 11, 2007 02:59 PM

I failed the 1 hour, passed the 3 hour, I hope you pass it as well!

Posted by: pixie at December 11, 2007 03:01 PM

I failed my 1hr test and passed the three hour. May I strongly suggest that you bring something to eat with you. You will need to eat at least something small before you go home to combat the sugar stuff they make you drink.

Other than that, it really wasn't too bad. Just boring.

Posted by: liz at December 11, 2007 03:14 PM

A coworker of mine has really wacky blood sugar processing. She didn't even make the one hour- but her kids turned out just fine. Good luck with the 3 hour!

Posted by: kelly at December 11, 2007 03:16 PM

I keep trying to hope for one easy thing too. I've been hoping for 6 years. It's always a fall that almost knocks out the front teeth, a broken arm, asthma or croup and a breathing treatment at the ER. I think we all hope for the easy day. Let me know if you get one...I'm still hoping.

Posted by: Kristen at December 11, 2007 03:19 PM

Cara, when I was pregnant with my second child, the test they do in utero for Spina Bifida came back with results that suggested the baby might have Down's Syndrome. The time between then and when I got the results of the amniocentesis back was hellish.

BTW, that child just turned twenty, has an IQ off the map and is on his way to a career writing like his mother.

This is only the first of many times you will be reminded that your child's destiny lies beyond your grasp. And that is the toughest part of being a parent.

They are ours to treasure, and ours to have, but never ours to hold...

Blessings from one who has been there.

Posted by: Susan Pandorf at December 11, 2007 03:22 PM

Aw, Cara, I'm sorry. Most people I know failed the first one. No, wait, that was their drivers' test. No, it was the GD test, I'm sure of it. Best wishes for tomorrow. That babe will so be worth it, but it's hard having to go through all you've already gone through to get there. Hugs to you.

Posted by: AmyH at December 11, 2007 03:43 PM

I flunked the 3 hour test the first time, but regulated entirely with diet, no problem. I was borderline the second time and so opted to do the same dietary changes again. It's hard to be off sugar and juice and chocolate and caffeine all at the same time, but you get used to it very fast, especially when it's the health of your baby at stake! But it does not always mean shots (or even usually). GD is the most common complication of pregnancy.

Try not to worry. Hey, the upside of GD is they don't let you go all the way to 40 weeks! 39 was just fine for me, I was over it.

Good luck!

Posted by: Wendy at December 11, 2007 03:58 PM

i don't know how it is for everyone, but certainly as my pregnancy progressed i felt the baby move less and less. i got so freaked out at one point i went to the hospital; on a monitor i could hear her move, though i was still feeling nothing.

every pregnancy is different, and they all have their complications, if you do have GD it can be easily managed and won't have any lasting impact on the baby.
i developed high blood pressure at the end of my pregnancy, they told me that blood flow could stop to the placenta so they induced me 3 weeks early, and eight months later my baby is the picture of health.
its always scary to go through this stuff but they wont let your baby be in any danger.
good luck.

Posted by: laura at December 11, 2007 04:07 PM

Hang in there. Each of my 3 pregnancies were bump after bump after bump. Some little, some big and scary, but in the end they were perfect. Yes it is a pain in the butt those GTT but at least you do get 3 hours to do something. the last time around i dragged my laptop with me and edited pictures and digital home videos., others i knitted or crocheted.

It seems to me from everyone that I have talked to that failing the 1 hr GTT is almost normal. =)

Posted by: Qutecowgirl at December 11, 2007 04:12 PM

I failed the 1-hour with my daughter. I passed the 3-hour, although they did tell me I might become diabetic later in life. So far, so good on that, as the optimist said.

Anyhow... don't worry! You know you can deal with whatever comes.

Posted by: Lucia at December 11, 2007 04:16 PM

Aw honey. I hear you on all counts. I had a similar experience with my daughter. It was always something and after a while it wears on you. Hugs and know that I know EXACTLY how you feel. And once you have this baby you'll feel 100% better!!! :)

Posted by: tulip at December 11, 2007 04:59 PM

I was so disappointed when I failed the one hour test too--I had so many hurdles and thought for sure that GD would not be one of them!! I found out later that I should have had breakfast before the test and not moved during it. I went for a long walk because I couldn't sit still. When I took the three hour, I sat very quietly and knit the entire time. I passed that one, but was prepared for the worst. Good luck with the three hour test. After the baby is here, you will forget all of this stress and just be so happy (and so tired!!)

Posted by: Diane at December 11, 2007 05:30 PM

Sending you good wishes for the 3hr test ... as others have said, I'm sure everything will go well. I was always worried whenever I didn't feel a kick when I was pregnant ... a friend told me to drink a glass of ice-water, the cold sensation is usually enough to perk them up a little and give you a bit of reassurance.

Posted by: Alison at December 11, 2007 05:57 PM

I failed my first one too - but passed the 2nd one though (the 3 hour one), but they made me wait a while between. Hope you pass the 2nd one!

Posted by: Robyn at December 11, 2007 06:02 PM

{{{hugs}}} It's tough to be pregnant. Its wonderfully tough. I'm sure you'll do just fine tomorrow. :)

Posted by: Samantha at December 11, 2007 06:08 PM

Oh! Please feel better! I hope everything is okay, and things work out well. Your baby is going to be BEAUTIFUL!

Posted by: Miranda at December 11, 2007 06:38 PM

oh god, i remember the panic when the babies didn't move. hang in there baby! and cara too. i hope everything is fine tomorrow.

Posted by: katy at December 11, 2007 06:41 PM

Fingers crossed and thinking of you tomorrow. Your just starting on the path of motherhood worry a little early. S/he will be lovely and healthy, and you will pass the test.

Posted by: anmiryam at December 11, 2007 06:44 PM

I just had my 3 hr test Monday before last. It did make me quite sick. I took my Zofran, but it messed up my stomach anyway, and I had a hideous blood sugar crash at the end. So, my advice, don't go by yourself. I drove myself there, and then I drove home, which was really dumb. If someone had been there to get me crackers and juice after the last blood draw, it would have helped a huge amount. I got so shaky I wasn't making good decisions. My reaction might have been extreme; but I think it's a good test to have company for. And, I should note, I passed the dang test. I thought for sure that if I felt that bad I was failing, but nope.

On the bright side, I did manage to knit some, and read a whole People magazine, the local paper, and some of my book.

Posted by: cherylc at December 11, 2007 06:54 PM

OK so the 3 hour test sucks but even if you flunk it, there is a bright side: the diet is awesome and you gain so much less weight in the last trimester. And you get to feel all virtuous: "I am not eating that grape...FOR MY BABY!"

Maybe that bright side is not bright enough, but it's really a cool thing that they have this test and can just totally prevent the whole GD thing.

Sorry to be a Pollyanna.
Love,
Pollyanna

Posted by: Kay at December 11, 2007 07:06 PM

Thinking PASSING thoughts for you.

Posted by: claudia at December 11, 2007 07:18 PM

Good luck. Pregnancy is stressful, and the poster above that recommends someone to take you home - they are right on the money.

Posted by: Ingrid at December 11, 2007 07:55 PM

High five to your sister, I had to take the 3 hr for all 3 of my kids too. By the third, I just said at the beginning, "just sign me up for that flipping 3 hour test". But...knitting! Hopefully that will take the edge off and maybe even make it enjoyable! And you will pass for sure.

Posted by: Emily at December 11, 2007 11:18 PM

Breathe sweetie.
It's normal for a baby to move less as it grows, there just isn't as much room!
You're in good hands and in MANY peoples good thoughts/prayers. :)

Posted by: Lynn at December 12, 2007 12:30 AM

I'm sorry to hear about your GD test. I hope the three hour goes better. I'll be sending good venipuncture vibes your way.
If it helps any, I had GD with both pregnancies. I watched what I ate and stuck my finger 4 times a day. It was kind of a pain (literally) but worth it for the babies. Both girls were born perfectly healthy.

Posted by: Tasha at December 12, 2007 06:00 AM

Yep, it has been tough for you. I'm sorry. The big reward is going to be the baby, and I'm a believer that all the aggravations of pregnancy are a prep for the lack of control that is being a parent. We love 'em, but control does go out the window, to a certain extent!

Posted by: Janet at December 12, 2007 09:16 AM

Ugh, good luck with the test! I wish I had been a knitter then, too. I failed the one hour, and squeaked by on the three hour. I wish you the best!

Posted by: Nichole D. at December 12, 2007 09:27 AM

Happy knitting and good luck with the test! I always thought that stuff tasted like flat Mountain Dew. Certainly better than a dose of Five Hour Energy! I will keep you in my prayers this morning especially.

Posted by: Beth in WI at December 12, 2007 09:55 AM

Cara,
I too had a long-awaited pregnancy that turned out to be one challenge after another. I barely failed the 3 hr. but pricking myself was no big deal and my blood sugar stayed good. Pregnancy was definetly the hard part. Even though my daughter is now 15, I have to say it just gets better and better.

Posted by: Virginia at December 12, 2007 10:20 AM

Think of it this way...everything, or most everything is so crappy now and hard and not fun very much, and your labor and birth will be a breeze! Or the breastfeeding, if you're going to. There will be something super easy that you were worried about that will totally make up for all the crap you're having to go through. At least there better be, right? Go buy some new yarn and play.

Posted by: Kathy in KS at December 12, 2007 10:39 AM

Hi!
I work for the Canadian Diabetes Association as a Public 'educator'. Don't worry too much about the gestational diabetes thing. it's not terribly difficult to control: it just means taking the sort of care of yourself that you (and the rest of us, too!) already should!
If you have any diabetes-related questions please don't hesitate to email me and i can send you resources ago-go.
For what it's worth- enjoy the extra knitting time!

Posted by: kjerstiye at December 12, 2007 11:30 AM

I got myself all worked up over some testing with my first..... ended up puking all OVER the office.......the best part?

I was trying to make my way to the bathroom- to be sick...when this older woman and her husband came up to me...

He had her by the arm----(my eyes were darting in search of the VERY necessary toilet)"She's blind... can you please help her into the bathroom...?" He asks...

I must have made some weird noise or said something equally strange... cause the blind woman says "Honey--- she's gonna be sick, leave her be!"

Yep- takes a blind woman to tell a man when a woman's gonna be sick.....

Hope you're test went well- prayers for you- good thoughts and crossed needles.....;)

PS- I'm not a good pregnant person--- totally get the wish to have SOMETHING go smoothly...


Posted by: tracey in mi at December 12, 2007 12:32 PM

Cara,
You're probably sick of reading comments about others that have had GD but, well, I can't help myself so here goes. I have two kids. My pregnancy with the first I failed the 1 hour and passed the 3 hour. I felt horrible the whole pregnancy and had a 9 lb 2 oz baby. I had trouble losing the weight after. My second pregnancy (baby just born 8/30/07) I failed the 3 hour and followed the diet. I felt great during the last part of my pregnancy and had a 7 lb 10 oz baby. At 6 weeks postpartum I lost all the weight plus 20 pounds which put me at my goal weight :) Now, if I could just lay off the cookies during the holiday season...guess I need to keep my knitting needles in my hands at all times.
Hope this morning is over (I won't say I hope it wasn't too bad b/c that test stinks!)
Jen

Posted by: jen at December 12, 2007 12:34 PM

Cara,
While I didn't take the GD tests with my recent pregnancy (because I had a serious complications that actually made it so I couldn't take the test,) I know very well the longing to just have SOMETHING be easy and "normal."
I also HATED having people tell me it would all be worth it in the end, because I had no concept of that. It was too abstract to mean anything.
I wish I could tell you about something to make it easier, but truly, for me, nothing made it easier. Only distraction got me through it, so keep knitting, working, and spending a lot of time with people who love you.

Posted by: Duchess at December 12, 2007 12:51 PM

Failed them both miserably, chica. The three hour one sucked ass since they a) forgot to give me anything to eat afterwards, b) it was Valentine's Day and I was shopping for food for a "romantic" dinner, and c) nearly passed out on at said grocery store with food in hand. I followed the dietary guidelines to a "t" until about 36 weeks. The moral? Two healthy girls 17 years later sitting upstairs watching "Harry Potter 5." Hang in there; it gets better . . . you know, the calm before the storm.

Posted by: Ava at December 12, 2007 01:06 PM

Geez, hope you catch a break on this one! Fingers crossed for you.

Posted by: Danielle at December 12, 2007 01:28 PM

Hi hon, like everybody else in the universe, I was a GD failure (wow does that sound bad) and went on the diet.

The diet is fantastic. Like the others above, it kept me at a very manageable weight, which was like a present from Santy Claus after the baby came. Less weight to lose.

I honestly tell people to go on the diet anyway, because it's healthy and is good for you and that baby inside.

So excited about you and yer baby!

Posted by: Ann at December 12, 2007 01:30 PM

How'd it go? I'm waiting on pins and needles to hear.

Posted by: Teresa C at December 12, 2007 03:00 PM

Oh, I failed that fucking test, too, with my first kid. I hated the 3hr GTT I almost threw up the non-carbonated orange crush that they make you drink. I hope you have a great time knitting, though. FWIW, I did pass the first time with my second child--I just fasted that morning. :/ and then, of course, was ready to pass out by the time I took the test.

Posted by: Jen at December 12, 2007 03:08 PM

I took both the 1 hr and 3 hr GTT and they were hard, but I got to sleep afterward. :)
I know how you feel about wanting just 1 break. You will get one! (or two or seven)
Good wishes to you.

Posted by: Kelli at December 12, 2007 04:05 PM

Oh hon, that test is failed so often and then people pass the second... they REALLY need to design something better. It just scares the crap out of women who are already an emotional wreck. Don't cry, get mad. It's a dumb test and they need to make a better one!

Posted by: Jess at December 12, 2007 04:36 PM

Reading your great blog and others written by you lovely 20- and 30-somethings does sometimes make me feel a little o-l-d in my 50-something skin, but reading so many comments about failing one test after another, I find myself feeling almost grateful that my children were born in the pre-GD/GTT days, practically in the days before ultrasounds. You ladies have so much more to think and worry about. I guess my ignorance was matched only by my great good fortune in giving birth to two healthy babies. Hope all goes well with this next round of screenings, and you can enjoy being "with child" from here on.

Posted by: Ann R. at December 12, 2007 07:11 PM

No one wants a failed test. I'm sure it will be fine. Every test has false negatives and false positives. But if you want to catch a break and have something easy... hold out for an easy delivery. That's when you want to cash in on the break - during labor and delivery.

Posted by: sue at December 12, 2007 08:24 PM

Yay for kicking babies! I hope all goes well at the next test.

Posted by: tiennie at December 12, 2007 11:38 PM

I had GD with both my daughters.. the first one took them so long to diagnose - but once I got on the diabetic diet (and I was totally anal about it) I felt absolutely fantastic... it is not so bad in the long run.. and if that is it, you will feel so much better...... chin up grrrlfriend - you're coming into the final stretch until the joy of having a little one in your life.
I promise, it'll be worth all of this.

Posted by: Teyani at December 13, 2007 12:26 AM

40% carbs(high fiber fruits and veggies), 30% protein(low fat meats, lentils, lowfat cheeses), 30% good fats(olive and canola), what does Western Traditional medicine know about nutrition(nothing)? This is by far the most nutritional diet you can provide yourself.

Posted by: Terri Lynn at December 13, 2007 12:27 AM