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September 15, 2009

Commencement

Today is the first day of the rest of your life, or maybe, yesterday was. The end came a few days sooner than I had hoped, but Friday was the last day we nursed. And yesterday (well, now Saturday - I'm just coming back to this post) was the first day we didn't. It went okay for Meli, as far as I can tell. She woke up and still wanted me and needed me and loved me, even though she was mad at me the night before. I, on the other hand, cried right along with her. I will miss nursing her so much it hurts. (Literally. We've been nursing once a day for a couple of weeks now and still my boobs feel full and slightly engorged. I hope that passes quickly. Still hurting and slightly engorged. Now it's just getting old!)

I'm immensely proud of our nursing relationship and know that our relationship as mother and daughter will always be evolving and that the next period of our loves will be equally rewarding, fulfilling and joyful.

Rinse and repeat. I will get over this. She already has.

On to happier subjects. I'm truly beginning to LOVE our house. It's quickly becoming a home with all of the frustrations and headaches and sweet details I try hard to remember when I'm pissed about the headaches. For instance, the other day I took a walk with Meli at the park near our house and when we arrived back to our street the ice cream man was here. Nothing says summer and home like the ice cream man. And then, I was putting back the garbage cans and I saw a cardinal sitting on the point of the garage roof. We see cardinals ALL the time. And don't get me started on the crickets. I can open up the windows (I hadn't opened up the windows in the apartment for over a year because of all the construction - and even then I don't think I heard a chirp. Not one chirp) and hear those crickets go to town. Just opening the windows alone is worth the price of admission.

The house is coming together at a snail's pace. I've had a lot of one step up, three miles back moments, but I'm living with it. I had a handyman come out yesterday to address the book problem (i.e. where the hell to put all of them) and I wasn't really thrilled with his solution, so again, one step up and a giant leap backwards. Evenutally it will all be put away - or if not - we have a nice big attic and lots of storage. Ugh.

We had a block party the other day on our little street and it was a lot of fun hanging with our neighbors and getting to know everyone. The amount of children on our block is staggering and Meli will never have a shortage of playmates. She's a bit younger than most of the kids, but so far they all love her and are very sweet with her (an abundance of 5 yr olds, it seems.) Makes me love the house even more.

Fingers crossed but it looks like we may have oldsay the partmentay. Don't want to tempt the fates. It will be such a relief to have that gone.

And I've been knitting. I have one repeat and the toe left to do on the first socks of my second batch of monkeys! So maybe, just maybe, I'll have a picture on this old blog sometime soon. And maybe it will be of knitting. Rhinebeck's only a MONTH away! Meli's head is going to explode this year. SHEEP! SHEEP! SHEEP! BAAAAAAAAAAAA!

L, C

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